I was on the train yesterday when a friend texted me saying everything in her life was fine except that she is hopelessly infatuated with a married man. For once in my life I know how she feels, being that I have chatted with one every night almost for the past couple of days. It is not completely innocent since we have both expressed mutual attraction, but I also have made clear it wont go further. He’s not just married, he’s married with children. I have felt guilty like the sins of my bloodline are finally starting to blossom in me. I know better yet I am not always so certain I can do better. I don’t know what it is hormones? season? I have been insanely randy.
I am trying to move on. I have been following this (so far) ridiculously accurate horoscope. According to the horoscope this weekend that just passed was to be one of romance and creativity. This is where I feel like maybe the horoscope has perhaps ceased to be accurate. On Saturday I hung out with my sister vegging in front of the TV, drinking and painting my nails. I decided to leave when there was nothing else on except for The Wizard of Oz. I talked till the wee hours of the morning to the married man.
So Saturday was definitely not romance day. Sunday I went to my bosses birthday gathering at a Tapas bar. I dressed up, even wearing my uncomfortable heels. It was a fun gathering, but no romance that I can remember. I talked to a lovely American, Irish, British guy who helped me to be less party awkward. I was for the most part being very shy, feeling a little out of place not knowing anyone and being the youngest person. He encouraged me to drink which helped a little. I ended the evening talking to a really drunk South African gentleman who told me the same story repeatedly. This I didn’t mind so much. What was sort of awkward were the statements/questions “Are you a rugmuncher?” and “I’m South African and a racist but I really like you.” I don’t really know the appropriate way to respond to those so I didn’t. It was an eventful evening to say the least but I think I need to reread that horoscope to see what is going on.
